Tonight was one of those “scroll through every picture you’ve ever taken of your kids, crawl in bed with them once they’re asleep, and go back and read the blog you haven’t updated in THREE YEARS” kind of nights. Time is weird, babies and toddlers are hard, life is busy, and instagram is easier than… Continue reading It’s been a minute
October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. I think of Madeline and Holland every single day…but today I hope that others will remember them too, and all the other babies whose lives ended too soon. Thank you to my friend who shared this quote with me. If you know someone who has lost… Continue reading Remembrance
My daughter turned 3 on Tuesday. I’ve spent the past 4 weeks or so planning a birthday party I didn’t plan on having. We’d anticipated one of three scenarios for her birthday: a miserably pregnant & immobile mother in the June heat, hospitalization at 30 weeks, or babies in the NICU that would require our… Continue reading Happy birthday big sister!
It’s been 3 weeks and 1 day since I delivered and said goodbye to Madeline and Holland. Three weeks of emotional turmoil. Three weeks of physical changes. Three weeks of figuring out how to go forward. Each week that passes brings us to another pregnancy milestone that should be cause for celebration but instead just… Continue reading Mother’s Day
Heartbroken is the word Ryan has used to describe the feeling of losing “Baby A” and I haven’t been able to find anything else that is more accurate. The first few days I went back and forth between overwhelming grief and a somewhat pathetic hope that maybe there had been some mistake and she would… Continue reading Tiny heartbreaks